bf

i have quite a number of friends but i have only a few whom i consider true friends... those who know me in and out; those who would take a bullet for me, no ifs and buts; those who would tell me when im wrong but still wont stop me :D and those who would be more ecstatic when im really happy.

and for those friends, rest assured, they are reciprocated or even more.

but what if one of those friends' life is greatly affected becoz of me? dont be surprised coz i know.. i feel.. i can see it. my constant presence means security for ya, like you told me, but for others, it means otherwise. too bad.

sumtimes i would wanna go away from ya so they can come near. sumtimes i would ask myself, am i not keepin the right distance? i dont know whats in your mind but it has started to make me feel a little uncomfy coz u lost the last one again... becoz of me :(

you always tell me whats good for me. now, would u tell me what is right for ya? i wanna know. and no matter what, nothing will change.

labs ya bigtime.. you will always be my bestfriend.


said he

demmet!!

its almost three, i cant sleep pa rin. this fuckin migraine is really a pain in the neck. my body wants to sleep na but my brain wouldnt let me.

ive puked and all but i still cant get myself to retire! badtrip! wala akong magawa and im really this close to doin sumthin which i hope i wont regret later!!

damn!!!!!

miguel

wala lang

to those who are askin, sorry nuthin new, but thanks. due to time constraints, we have not been posting much lately. pasensya na, we are just too busy....with each other hahaha!

hayyyy im so tired and hungry at that..gtg


said he

soliloquy

have you ever felt that you've had quite enough? more than what you can ever handle in a day? you want to take a rest or maybe just talk to someone whom you know would understand you, but you just cant seem to find the right person to talk to? and then you finally decide to be alone, by yourself... not exactly your best company but for the moment, hmmm maybe...

sometimes i start to talk to myself (not aloud of course lest others find me really queer, which i am by the way hehe) reliving the drama of the day, running all sorts of unspoken witticism, wisecracks and retorts i could ever think of, hahaha!!!

and then i take a deeeeeep breath and start realizing that its all in my head. that im not alone and will never be (i hope!) that there are some things (or most things rather) better said out loud than kept bottled, pickled, whatever hehe and i just come back to wherever i was before all this started and hope to G that im never too late :D ;-P


said she

...........

im sick and tired


said he