hate...hate...hate!!!
i hate this day!
first, i was disturbed in my slumber and its even a sunday! fuck! kanina, the helps couldnt get me up, neither could dolores! i was just forced to open my eyes coz my mom came up and was in her elements...blah blah away doki! i was literally pulled out from my bed becoz it was already past 11 and i was still tucked under the sheets, and there was a party here. mom invited some people kase to lunch, a welcome treat for my cousins who are here for vacation, and of course to celebrate pop's day. like i wanted to retort....do i have all the food with me mother, that you cannot go on with the hoopla without me?? but of course, i held my tongue...ayokong maopis no!?
second, sumbody was here and i hate it when she is here becoz i have to be proper..like bahay ko kase, i have to be nice and all. hayyyyzzz!! lunch was super, alright but i couldnt enjoy it much becoz i felt...ewan!! basta!! kain na lang din ako ng kain to the point of almost puking. worse, after lunch, ping initiated a stupid game which put everyone on the spot. that crazy bitch! in fairness, everyone seemed to have a good time...except me. basta, my mind was sumwhere else kasi. like i was b-o-r-e-d!! and i was busy with my celfone saws!
after everybody has left, i thought things would get better... i thought i would be with the person i missed all day, finally! but noooo!! sumhow i felt it no matter how surreptitious it was... parang cold waaaa! basta it was not the usual, i know. i tried to shrug it off but just couldnt...i can almost smell it! too bad i had to go for dinner.
i gave her time to do her stuff...and i needed time for myself as well. but all these were starting to get into my nerves na. tried to pass time by doin anything that could get mind my out of it all. parang nababaliw na ako tapos i could hear jasper snoring like a pig pa!! at the back of my mind naiinis na ako pero i cant deny the fact that i miss her like hell. when we got to talk again...boom!! one wrong move and the bomb was set off!! all the while she was nagtatampo pala. so what happened was parang two fireballs colliding...ganyan!! and the worst of the day came :(
its almost getting light outside but cant get myself to sleep pa rin!! ive puked twice na! tangina!! napipikon pa rin ako! naiirita! and cant do anything about it...fuckkkkkkk!! i hate this day, terrible!! i wanna go to sleep na but i cant coz im bothered. sumthin inside is crawling like a snake ready to take on its prey. and i realized its my feeling of guilt.... i know she wasnt able to do what she was supposed to do becoz of me. so now i end up hating myself... really hateeee!!
lo siento mucho mi miel. te quiero.....
said he
i hate this day!
first, i was disturbed in my slumber and its even a sunday! fuck! kanina, the helps couldnt get me up, neither could dolores! i was just forced to open my eyes coz my mom came up and was in her elements...blah blah away doki! i was literally pulled out from my bed becoz it was already past 11 and i was still tucked under the sheets, and there was a party here. mom invited some people kase to lunch, a welcome treat for my cousins who are here for vacation, and of course to celebrate pop's day. like i wanted to retort....do i have all the food with me mother, that you cannot go on with the hoopla without me?? but of course, i held my tongue...ayokong maopis no!?
second, sumbody was here and i hate it when she is here becoz i have to be proper..like bahay ko kase, i have to be nice and all. hayyyyzzz!! lunch was super, alright but i couldnt enjoy it much becoz i felt...ewan!! basta!! kain na lang din ako ng kain to the point of almost puking. worse, after lunch, ping initiated a stupid game which put everyone on the spot. that crazy bitch! in fairness, everyone seemed to have a good time...except me. basta, my mind was sumwhere else kasi. like i was b-o-r-e-d!! and i was busy with my celfone saws!
after everybody has left, i thought things would get better... i thought i would be with the person i missed all day, finally! but noooo!! sumhow i felt it no matter how surreptitious it was... parang cold waaaa! basta it was not the usual, i know. i tried to shrug it off but just couldnt...i can almost smell it! too bad i had to go for dinner.
i gave her time to do her stuff...and i needed time for myself as well. but all these were starting to get into my nerves na. tried to pass time by doin anything that could get mind my out of it all. parang nababaliw na ako tapos i could hear jasper snoring like a pig pa!! at the back of my mind naiinis na ako pero i cant deny the fact that i miss her like hell. when we got to talk again...boom!! one wrong move and the bomb was set off!! all the while she was nagtatampo pala. so what happened was parang two fireballs colliding...ganyan!! and the worst of the day came :(
its almost getting light outside but cant get myself to sleep pa rin!! ive puked twice na! tangina!! napipikon pa rin ako! naiirita! and cant do anything about it...fuckkkkkkk!! i hate this day, terrible!! i wanna go to sleep na but i cant coz im bothered. sumthin inside is crawling like a snake ready to take on its prey. and i realized its my feeling of guilt.... i know she wasnt able to do what she was supposed to do becoz of me. so now i end up hating myself... really hateeee!!
lo siento mucho mi miel. te quiero.....
said he
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