i hate luv!

the past few days, ej has been forwarding some sms about love….finding true love, the difference between infatuation and love, keeping the love that u have found etc etc. as I was reading the super habang msgs, parang there was this feeling of abrupt silence around me. natamaan ata ako sa mga sms shit. nyahaha!

they say each and every one of us has that special sumone out there destined to become the very person u are gonna share your life with forever. its amazing isn’t it? it sounds so unbelievable yet so true.

im no expert at this but i can tell you what luv is for me… luv is knowin everything about sumone and still wanting to be with him/her more than anybody else. it is trusting to tell him/her everything about urself including the things that might embarrass ya; it is the feeling of being comfy and safe and at home with that special person. luv is when u spend so much time with that person but u still get weak in the knees when he/she walks into a room and throws u a glance and smiles at ya. ganyan kung masaya ka! ibang usapan pag hinde hmp!

with luv comes pain! its almost inevitable *sigh*. in one way or another, sumthin’s gotta give, no matter how hard you try. lucky are those who have found true luv.. they wont have to go through what most people experience. yun bang kahit anong pagdaanan nila, they would just take it as a grain of salt coz their luv will see them thru. pero many would take a lifetime hopin for that person to come dba? hayyyy….

dami kasi nababaliw sa lecheng pag ibig na yan! pero its all a matter of choice actually! weron jan nagpapakamatay dahil sa pagibig. why would u do that?? life has more to offer! weron namn mga taong nipipilit mga sarili sa wala naman gusto sa kanila. waiting in vain amp e madami namn iba jan! others would probably wanna stand up beside rizal sa pagkamartyr. pano ung iba, babaero mga bf/hubby! saws! beeppp nyahaha! minsan may freebies pang bugbog yan tae pero ok lng kasi nga luv daw! ano ba yannn! while still others play the game na lang…parang ok, its ‘us’ pero pwede ka mambabae, pwede rin ako manlalake..ganyan!! patigasan ng heart amp! like luv pa ba un? sabi nila luv is not for players and cheaters pero who are we to question other people’s schemes? mind your own business, walang pakialamanan na lang. to each his own when it comes to luv…kanya kanyang disposition, kanya kanyang outlook.

ako, I hate luv! it makes you vulnerable. it exposes ur heart and sumone can get inside u and mess u up like hell. Fuck! u try to build up all these walls, these defenses for years so nothing and no one can hurt ya. then one person, no different from any other person comes wanderin into ur susceptible life and u give him/her a piece of u even if they don’t fuckin ask for it. tanga tangahan ka, sige lang, d ka na makapag isip ng mabuti. then one day he/she does something stupid like kiss you or squeeze your hand or just smile at ya or probably hug ya and say I luv u .. and boom your life isn't your own anymore. before u know it, luv has taken u a hostage and ure all fucked up na. it gets inside u. it eats u out and leaves u shattered! so simple phrases like "maybe we should just be friends" or "we could be better off if we go our separate ways" turn into daggers striking u straight in the heart. like taeeeeeeee!! it hurts bigtime. not just in the imagination. not just in the mind. it's a soul-tearin, body-smashin pain; a real gets-inside you-and-rips-you-apart pain. horrible!! waaaaa! i really hate luv.. yet i still do it amp amp! baliw talaga shit!! hahaha!

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